Yesterday was warm – 70-75 F and plants were in need of water. May 8th… Unheard of for this time of year.
This morning the rain sounded great, I listened to it for awhile before getting up. The luxury of appreciation – a few moments break after months of working to meet several goals. Finally daylight, I let the dogs out and realized it was snowing and raining… Yesterday the weather report said 66 degrees this week. I was about to make a sarcastic comment wearing my winter attire as I walked to feed the horses – but got in gear when I realized they all were shivering in a big way. Windy, wet and snowy; winter coat mostly shed, Spring/Summer coat not yet grown in… dang it, 4 horses were shivering and uncomfortable. They can loose a lot of weight in a short period of time with this weather. Food was tossed quickly and it took time to make a change. I realized I don’t live in the luxury of a moments rest and sarcasm isn’t worth the time to think of clever statements I thought as I rinsed off my mud boots when draining the water that had collected in the feeder. There is work to be done every moment, the goal at the end of the day is not to sit, watch the news and TV shows.
Up until a decade ago my life was filled with controlled, predictable moments. When an event occurred that was outside the comfort zone I would launch into some clever sarcastic comment before diving in to deal with it. For the past decade I haven’t once looked back on that life with fondness… Innocence is not bliss.
The transition to seeking life that is healthy, rich with education to be and feel capable to make it through any challenge that I allow to come my way has stretched me to crash and burn limits. I always stand right back up as there is no destination to this journey and the comfortable rest stops aren’t the choices I make… Life is different not flowing with the masses, taking side streets instead of merging with the other cars on the freeway, discerning truth by the ‘energy of answers’ not trusting the ‘spoken words’ I want to hear. Through conscious choice it took a decade to find the path I want to walk on, and to make a difference, to become a leader, not a follower or a joiner, it is a choice. Here’s to the people who struggle to find their truth, their voice, those who create and give as well as receive, those who listen to the golden rules and consider all forms of life as capable and worthy. In my opinion, there are no good times to go back to yet – we are far from an acceptable destination.
Back to sarcasm… No one speaks my thoughts better than me. I’m happy to say I will never vote for a president because they speak the words I haven’t yet formulated or can’t bear to say… When I speak these days, sarcasm and excuses are not worth the time to say or hear nor do they offer humor, they are an anchor to the current moment and contain a level of contempt.
When I endorse someone for the job to run our country and interact with countries of the world – it is because I feel they are fully capable to do their job for the greater good for all living beings. So many people – every where – are living outside their comfort zones and are not able to make the best choices… If you are still living a comfortable life it would be a good idea to get used to change…
These are exciting times as change is in the hands of every individual! I am not upset because the weather didn’t follow what the weatherman reported. I make a better choice based on whatever shows up. Since I live on the edge of the comfort zone – there are constant adjustments – this is living life, not simply living.
